As she gets older she surprises me with the remarks that she makes like, "wassup nigga?!" The way she talks to Kannon in an even higher pitched voice and has conversations with him. The way she picks things up if it is a mess. The way she dances around and thoroughly enjoys herself. The way she cries for things that she wants (the passion is there). I could go on forever about how amazing she is and how she amazes me but what I have come to notice each birthday is how quickly time flies.
So often I find myself wishing for my day at work to go by quicker. Or for it to be next year when henna graduates so we can move out. Or even wishing it to be 1 o'clock so she can go down for a nap. It's easier said than done but wishing time away needs to stop. Never can we be satisfied with the present thinking we will be with the future when come to find out we are satisfied by memories of the past. If only we enjoyed that time and maybe it would leave less regret or longing to go back.
Austyn and Kannon are growing as each minute passes. I really wish they could stay this small forever. So innocent and sweet. The I love yous and I miss yous may be short lived. Those sweet words of "I am so proud of you. " are heart turning. Do I think she knows what it means to be proud of someone? I'm not sure. But what I do know is that everything we do she admires and she loves me and sees me as my Creator sees me, perfect.
She has such a sweet heart and is so in tune with others and their feelings. She reminds me to be in the moment. To be in the moment of her screaming and crying to watch one more show. Those moments are extremely hard I must add but sometimes I am patient and somehow keep my cool. But other days I really need to remember to cherish each moment as it passes because each is special. It's hard to know I will never get them back.
I am beyond thankful for Austyn. She has made my life so colorful. She makes me smile with the way she loves to dance and sing to Dora and Friends oh and you can't forget Sophia! She makes my eyes water with the way she strokes my face and tells me she loves me. She makes my heart turn every time she greets me when I get home with a great big hug and an I miss you. She makes me proud when she says her prayers all on her own. Her example has such a great impact on me. My life is so rich because of this little girl. I love her with all my heart . Happy Birthday Austyn 😘
