Shower Thoughts

    The other night I was about to take a shower and before I did I had to take a look in the mirror at my new body. As I examined my body there were marks all up along my sides, stomach and thighs. My thighs thicker and my hips wider. I couldn't stand to look any longer so I jumped into the shower. I began to get upset at what my body had become; hideous. My mind started to picture my use-to-be body and how it was free of marks and not so wide set. Before I could start crying I stopped my negative thoughts with a question, "Does the appearance of my body really matter?"

    What do I honor most? Vanity or Humility?

    Henna has really engraved in my brain that someone's aura out weighs their beauty and he's right. The mentality and personality that you have effects so much of what you look like. I know that the women and men I admire are not based on what they look like but who they are and how they live their life. I have to admit that when in high school I was extremely vain and with that came selfishness. All three of my children have really kicked me in the bum. Austyn helped me to grow up in the categories of being responsible and selfless. Payton has given me better understanding of my calling as a woman. For myself it isn't to be in the work field but to be at home with my children teaching them and helping them grow into people that will only contribute positive things to society. Kannon has only solidified what Henna has taught me on physical appearance. All these characteristics are things that I am still working on but without my children and husband my eyes would not have been open.

    Now dont get me wrong its not that I dont want to be at a healthy weight or to look good in a bathing suit I would just rather put more of my time and energy to maximize my calling as a mother and wife. I feel that it is extremely important to be healthy and take care of yourself but if your day or night is being taken up by things that is only helping you then you will only make the next day consist of more things that are about you to satisfy the craving to feel good about yourself. You feel good about yourself when you help someone else feel good about themselves. Now try to understand that I am human and I am not announcing to the world that I am this superstar of a mom and wife because Im not perfect and there are days, more often then not, where I lose sight of who I am trying to be. But I have my children and husband to remind me that it is humility that I honor most. To me it is to be selfless, patient, knowledgeable, humble and diligent in everything.

    In all honesty stretch marks aren't my favorite and I dont think they are for anyone but those markings have meaning. Without them would mean I wouldn't have children. Without them I wouldn't have been able to learn and switch my mindset to something that is worth more then an image in the mirror.

The Brown Girl

Where do I begin?

    Hello everyone! Im so excited and nervous to start this whole blogging thing. I have been meaning to start ever since Henna and I got married and that was over 3 years ago (talk about pushing things off). Well I guess I will start off by introducing my family. Henna and I first met at Southern Utah University. He was on the football team and they were helping the freshmen move into their dorms and it just so happened that Henna was at the right dorm and the right side in order for us to meet.  We dated for a year and were married on May 29, 2011. That December we had a little girl named, Austyn. She has such a bright spirit for a little girl and full of personality. We then had another little girl named, Payton on October 7th of 2013 who is not with us physically but every once in a while I feel her spirit with me. Our third is a little boy and he is brand new to this world. He was born on August 17, 2014 and I thought he would never come.

    Henna and I were living in Cedar City and we semi-recently moved up to Salt Lake City because he started a nursing program. He is currently in school to receive his Associates of Nursing. He is also working as a Patient Care Tech at Primary Children's Hospital and he loves it. I am currently working at McDonough Orthodontics as an Orthodontic Assistant and I love everything about what I do and who I work with. Our end goal is to get in a place financially to where I am able to stay at home with the kids and hold the house down :)

    So that is that! I dont want to give too much a way and bore you to death. But on this blog it's going to be pretty random. Sadly I won't be giving any nutritional, crafting or exercise advice but only my thoughts on things and updates on the fam. Im excited to start this journey and hopefully be able to look back and be happy I did this. Thanks for reading and I'll be typing soon.

xoxo, Brown Girl